AUDIO BOOK REVIEW: The Push by Ashley Audrain

Publication Date: January 5, 2021
Format: Audio
Genre:  Psychological Thriller
Narrators: Marin Ireland

Publisher: Penguin Audio     
8 hours 38 min
Buy: Kindle | Audio


Blythe Connor is determined that she will be the warm, comforting mother to her new baby Violet that she herself never had.

But in the thick of motherhood's exhausting early days, Blythe becomes convinced that something is wrong with her daughter - she doesn't behave like most children do.

Or is it all in Blythe's head? Her husband, Fox, says she's imagining things. The more Fox dismisses her fears, the more Blythe begins to question her own sanity, and the more we begin to question what Blythe is telling us about her life as well.

Then their son Sam is born - and with him, Blythe has the blissful connection she'd always imagined with her child. Even Violet seems to love her little brother. But when life as they know it is changed in an instant, the devastating fall-out forces Blythe to face the truth.


This book was a wild ride.  It moves back and forth between Blythe in modern day and Blythe as a child with her mother.  Blythes mother was depressed and didn't much care for being a mom and Blythe is concerned that this may be the reasons she is struggling to bond with her daughter.  However weird things happen around Violet that give her pause but Fox doesn't see it.  He think Violet is perfect and that Blythe just doesn't understand her and its all in her head.

When Blythe's son Sam is born she finds the connection she has always longed for.  She has a strong bond with Sam and at first so does Violet then something shifts and Blythe starts worrying for her youngest child.

I don't want to give too much away but I found that I disliked Fox more and more throughout this book. He seems to gaslight Blythe at every turn, ignoring her suspicions and making her believe there is something wrong with her.  Even later in the book as Blythe finally comes to terms with the possibility that it is all in her head and starts to reach out to build a better relationship with her daughter Fox is unsupportive.  The final sentence floored me and left me cold.  What a crazy and devastating ending. 

There is a lot about being a mother, bonding and the way our bodies change as we give birth, nurse and expend so much of our time and energy giving to others.  Our bodies become vessels of life and when they aren't filled up at the end of the day with either self care or the love of a partner it can be all the more draining. 

Not gonna lie this is a hard book to get through.  The pain and struggle that Blythe goes through puts you through so many emotions but yet I couldn't stop I had to know is it really in her head or is something wrong with Violet.  I would have been disappointed had the author left us hanging with the one but she didn't.  Its hard to say I loved this book but it will sit with me for a long time and that last sentence will haunt me for a while. 


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